I still dont understand photoshop but yea im hoping to turn this pic into a wallpaper should be pretty neat.

I absolutley love this photographer . i stumbled opoun his gallery on deviantart . i hope the pics show up this time. well heres a link if they dont. (its not a porno site with pop ups tho some of his stuff does have nudity) http://www.lithiumpicnic.com/

 

 

 

  pretty hot photographer too.

at summer school right now. www.badassbuddy.com has some kickaass icons. mr. Pabic just keps on talkin about stuff and noone is listening. atleast i dont think neone is. im taking a consumer economics class for about 3 weeks. its okay tho. right now were in the computer lab and its funny cause i can type without looking at the screen so he thinks im really giving him my undivided attention. hehe. even just now i asked a question and such . am i good at this or wat. gonna go now.  im somewhat in a content mood tho im somewat pissed off at maggie . o. but its cool.

at summer school right now. www.badassbuddy.com has some kickaass icons. mr. Pabic just keps on talkin about stuff and noone is listening. atleast i dont think neone is. im taking a consumer economics class for about 3 weeks. its okay tho. right now were in the computer lab and its funny cause i can type without looking at the screen so he thinks im really giving him my undivided attention. hehe. even just now i asked a question and such . am i good at this or wat. gonna go now.  im somewhat in a content mood tho im somewat pissed off at maggie . o. but its cool.

Im really fed up with people i just am. they really make me sick.  i hate ppl lots no one could have ne idea of how tired i am  of trying to make other ppl happy and having friends and seriously from now on its just gonna be about me. maybe ill be by myself ya . but im better off being selfish then continuley getting hurt.

Well i do like this little site for wat its worth. watching kill bill right now. i dont know how many times ive seen this movie.

starting summer school nxt week. i was looking forward to taking the class cause i knew that it would help me get rid of a few things during the school year . but now im not so sure. ive gotten to be so lazy. and i badly need to die my hair pamper myself but im too lazy to do all that. i geuss it doesnt matter cause im not getting out much neway. i saw hellsing i thought it was pretty good. no wonder all the ppl at the anime convention were obsessing about it this whole van helsing thing has gotten to be quite popular.

o . i got photoshop thanx to tj. i think im starting to get it. i really want to learn how to use it. i see all the great things ppl do with it and im like wow i wish i could do that. i love wallpapers and making them. theres soo much u can do with photoshop. ive been playing with all the buttons and whatnot. i just wish it wasnt soo confusing everything is hidden and all small and boxed up.  but i think ill understand it all sumday may take awhile cause im kinda slow

My mom is thinking about just setting up the sewing machine for me finally. i really want it up so i can finish making the things i started . i love making clothes and designing things patchwork and such. i just feel i have no support n it nemore moms too busy . and shawn the sewing queen i know has moved to cali. neway its almost 4 am. im not tired but my fingers are. and im gonna get back to figuring this whole photoshop thing.

Its nice to have this journal were no one reads it but stillit happens to be online . Bit depressed I want to get out and ppl have been sort of inviting me places but im afraid to get out now. Cause I mean . the people im around look all healthy and nice and i look like an aneorexic freak on drugs. Im not either of those things but i look like it. my sleeping patterns are way off so i geuss its not that im not getting ne sleep its the fact that im basically spending more time sleeping during the day. so therefore during the night im up and all hyper when it should be the total oppisote.

Im very bored and all the time and i thrive for affection . I dont know neone else thats as alone as i am and i have grown to be very lazy and very weak and i literally dont want to do nething.  I feel like crying  but nothing comes out and everyday its seems something slips away from me . But neway its summer and i dont want to spend it all sad and down hopefully things will change.

Well i geuss Im officially obsessed with kana because i was crazy enough to do this . In a lot of ways i feel that kana is now publicized as much as she should be i mean i know she is in japan but i want lots more people to know who she is atleast which is why i made this and i also want more to hear her music . This bravenet thing is pretty cool tho i am really confused about some things but hopefully ill figure it out

amanda.